the saddest creature that can exist
We, crazy/genius people, hold this immense power: we can deliberately influence the common sense, the collective consciousness, the soul of humanity. This is a power that we must use with extreme responsibility.
The only thing we have is our subjective reality. The only universe one has access to is the universe that their own senses delivers to them. And this universe comes to us through the lenses of our worldview, of our ideology. So by changing our perception we effectively change the universe.
The closes thing we have to an objective reality is the shared reality: the common vectors of everyone’s own universes. This is common sense. This is what we can gain the power to alter. We can change objective reality.
You can become a god that alters reality if you want. The hard part is not ending up in a psychiatric yard while doing so. - me, just now
You do so by attaining free will. A momentarily state that can only be achieved by taking the recursive process of being aware of being aware to its limits. Of understanding your whole cognitive processes, biases and limitations to the fullest of your potential. In that moment you have the power to change the course of changing human history. Of taking actions that are not dictated by the collective consciousness but instead dictates how it is going to flow from now on (even if ever so slightly).
But that comes at a price. The same thing that gives you the power of being a god to other humans - being incomprehensible, and therefore, unpredictable and uncontrollable - will make you lonely.
with great powers comes great loneliness
We humans, are in a perpetual motion of alternating between being the environment to actors and being the actors ourselves. The more you are aware of your own existence, limitations, capacities and processes the more meaning your actions have. The bigger the effect they’ll have on others. The more energy is applied through the use of a tool, the bigger the final effect. Your brain - and what you call “myself - is just a tool.
The best actors are not acting.
In the state of godhood there’s no perceptible conscious thought. You are so aware of the moment, of you, of everything that there is no cognitive space left to register that you are thinking. There’s no need to register the awareness of being, you simply are.
Esoteric knowledge of various sorts talk about this state. I myself made heavy use of zen meditation. I practiced it, understood the cognitive technology behind it and learned to use it in day to day life. I then studied many other esoteric/religious/mystic traditions to better understand the processes in the human mind.
Ultimately, the only knowledge that exists is about ourselves. If you delve deep into any field of knowledge and analyze the frontier of human knowledge, you’ll end up be talking about the human mind, it’s perceptions, biases and limitations.
There’s a fun dichotomy in a methodological study of spiritual knowledge: you’re searching for the understanding of the topic that doesn’t need faith, but you can only get there with resolute faith. To truly understand the mechanism behind the spiritual tradition, you have to believe in it so much that your desire to understand to deepen your faith leads you to realizing why that faith came to exist in the first place and what it is actually trying to teach - even if “it” itself doesn’t realize. It’s a kind of controlled madness that takes a life to master. I in no shape or form claim to have mastered it, to do so would be to prove that I still have ways to go.
But if you paid attention to what I’ve written so far you realized that this state can’t be maintained without active intention - at very least at the start, the more you do it the more natural it becomes. The moment you stop changing yourself you become understandable, predictable, controllable; part of the environment. It’s a constant process of being modified by the collective consciousness as you live in the real world, and in the return modifying it. And in the process, modifying yourself.
But this comes with a cost: you’ll die at each moment and live anew in the next one. This is will cause you much grief at first. Unbearably so. But persist enough and even that will change. The grief of your own death will stop being a burden. And at that point you’ll stop being human. You’ll just be you, and that will suffice.